Really quickly..
I have to share. Today is, of course, my 21st birthday. I think the other people in Leiden with me realize how much of American tradition I've given up by being in the netherlands. After class ended at 5:30- I told everybody that they were welcome to join me for supper. I was told that we couldn't talk about it yet, and that I had to stay where I was... of course I knew what was happening- cake. At the last moment- before I hear "turn off the lights" I look into the computer lab and see Haley with a cake and candles lit. At the exact moment the lights get turned off the cake slides off of its base and the chocolate mousse cake (along with 21 lit candles) goes onto the floor. After we make sure the place isn't on fire I gave Haley a big hug. I knew she felt horrible that she had let the cake drop onto the floor. We picked it up- at around the side that had hit ... and oh- it was so good. It was so lovely for them to buy a cake and cupcakes. We then went out to supper, I paid, and tonight they can all get me back with the bar.
In the Netherlands, when a person has a birthday, the birthday person buys the drinks. Not tonight- I will do supper and you can do the drinks. So that will begin at 10:00. I will call my parents before then. Well, have a wonderful Halloween- I'll have a safe 21st!




The moon was beautiful (again) last night here in Leiden, there were a full three days of the moon in a 95 per cent full stage or more. I took my digital camera out with me after Desperate Housewives and got this photo. If I were at school I would have played with it on photoshop so we could see the drawbridge a little better, but this will do. I learned last night, as I sat in the cold grass, that my time in Leiden is not about how a change as a person. I've been freaking out that I haven't noticed significant changes in the person that I am. I think I decided that the most important part about being in Leiden is saying I've done it. In 20 years it won't matter how I changed over a five month period in a foreign country because I'll have been changing my whole life. I won't remember the day I became more aware of the world... I'll remember a sunset overlooking a house- or other equally random things. 
Basically we were left at this bar with no idea how to return to our hostel. We tried with all our might to remember how we got there, but for some reason it was really hard. I think it was because we were all trashed. I mean, the coconut beer was only 3.5 per cent, but say, the Villams Bruin was 11 per cent. So it's tough to gauge how drunk I was... oh, I may have only had six or seven beers to myself- but that means nothing when the percentage average is 8 per cent. Oh well. Here's what my walk home looked like.
How did we ever find the hostel? Haley speaks French and isn't afraid to ask people stupid questions. Since Brussels is a bilingual town, most people speak either French or Flanders, the latter being similar to Dutch. We were in the French part of the city-the language I don't speak. So we're asking everybody we see if they know where this place is. We ask a boy and then show him the address. Instead of pointing, he takes us out of his way at 1 in the morning and walks us to the hostel. Thank God. Speaking of God- I saw his blood yesterday in Brugge. What? Yes!
I got an email from one of the financial advisors at Central, and she told me that my loan was currently being looked over. We will probably know near the end of the month if my second attempt to secure a loan for this semester will be approved. The 31st of the month is my 21st birthday. It would be so nice to know that I may have money to celebrate my birthday with food other than bread and peanut butter! However, there's still processing time through Central that I would have to wait- at most 15 days. So, maybe I'll have $4,000 (originally to last me from Aug. 24 to January 18) by Nov. 16. I still don't have plane tickets to return home in December-and I haven't had money to call my mother since Sept. 2. If anybody knows her number, or sees her in a shop... tell her I'm alive and that, somehow, I'll be home for Christmas. Or whatever little pithy sayings there are for atheists. I'll be home by winter solstice!
The sun has obviously gone down on Leiden. At this point my thought was, "SHIT! We had two bottles of wine, where did they get to?! I surely didn't didn't drink a whole bottle of wine to myself!? ... did I?"
Towards the end of the night, Haley and I were each in great moods. All-in-all, it was a good night. I had just enough wine and went to bed in bliss for the first time in quite a while. Before I went to bed, I wrote about reminiscing. It has seemed to be a popular topic lately among people I know. I realized that we should all appreciate what we have at this moment so we can remember it, and all the good times, later in life.








