The news settles

I found out a few days ago that my loan to receive extra spending cash was denied. A big fat red line for that extra money that I would have used to buy food, beer, pot and clothes. I do, though, have just enough money to be enrolled at Central College for this year. They gave me at least that. So I don't have to worry about dropping out just yet. This probably mean that I can't stay here all year. In Pella I get food for free, and I can have a job to buy things like beer and books.

I haven't told my parents yet. My mother is on a cruise in the warm weather tropics, and she is the one who works most with my money issues. I have always tried to ignore money... pretend that it doesn't matter. I hate thinking about money, worrying about money; but now it's come to bite my ass. Basically, I don't know what to do.

There is a 'donate now' button under my picture, and you can give me money through Paypal. I have enough food to last me another week or so, but as for cigarettes. I haven't had one all day. I smoked my last one yesterday after sitting in the grass and getting stoned-for free.

Yesterday was a perfect day. We had class from 9-1 and after that we ate tosties (a grilled cheese sandwich with ham), got a blanket, rolled a spliff, and sat in the sun for a few hours.This is Haley. She mentioned that you know it's got to be a perfect day when there's not a cloud in the sky. She was so right. The day was lovely. We've not had a single rainy day while I've been here, nearly three weeks now. The weather has sat around 75 F every single day.
I love my Birkenstocks. They look so happy sitting in the grass next to that little white flower.

I was looking at concerts that are happening while I'm here in the Netherlands and I have three AMAZING options at my disposal. The first is Sufjan Stevens. He is trying to make an album about every U.S. state. He'll be in Amsterdam on October 27. The price is 13 euro. Next, on October 31... MY 21st BIRTHDAY!... The White Stripes will be in Amsterdam. This is a Monday night so it makes more sense to celebrate my 21st 21 miles away and not 210. The show costs 30 euro.
Finally, on November 26 Rufus Wainwright will be playing in Amsterdam for 22.50 euro. I saw him last October in Iowa City. The tickets were $20 a piece. I loved the show, it was absolutely amazing, and I have to go see him live again.